Monday, June 28, 2010
"Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you" Matthew 5:44
My life as I have known it since 1994 changed on April 1, 2010. My loving husband left this earth to be with the creator of Heaven and Earth. I am forever thankful that he no longer suffers and he is in Heaven, fishing with Jesus like Sloane says :) The past few months have been a roller coaster of emotions for me and the girls. But for the first time, in a long time, we are happy again. We laugh until we cry-we don't think about cancer every second. We don't wonder what is going to happen to us. We just live, in this moment-and we are happy. Some people may judge us. Say horrible things. I am not sure if it is because they don't truly love us, if they are hurt or mad at us because we are happy again, or if they are still dealing with their own grief. I don't know. But what I do know, is that my happiness and my girl's happiness are THE MOST important thing. So the rest of it, will have to be handled by God. I cannot fix everyone's emotions. I have a hard enough time with my own and my girls. I trust in God completely and I am letting Him guide every step I take. I am not perfect, but I am committed to doing things the way God wants me to-so I will be a work in progress everyday. And for those that judge me and persecute me-well, I will just continue to pray for them.
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I am so glad to hear this, Mindy! Glad that the grief subsides for a time and you can find joy! Only in the Lord can we have such hope and joy!
I pray for you often even though I've only met you once or twice.
Many blessings,
Angie
Jenna/Josh/Jessica's cousin
Amen Sister! Love you :)
I believe this is prayers being answered. Trying to move on and move forward doesn't mean forgetting Marcus. It means, forgetting the pain and suffering that went along with it. God doesn't want any of you to feel pain, and I know that Marcus doesn't either. I will continue to pray for healing and happiness for all 3 of you. I love you!
Mindy,
I think you are handling. IT is enough to be alive through this and make it through it alive. It's rough, but having said that, you MUST be alive to the forgiving spirit. Just watch what happened, and like a mosquito on the wall, it will lose its power over you.
I am praying for you tonight. Remember that those who are less than they are called to be will often be angry at the light, so much so that your very existence can cause a blip on their radar. They may take it out (consciously or not) on you. Be prepared to give alloowences to them in advace. This is what it means to "forgive". To give ahead of time. Can I say one more word? Well, okay since you demanded, you can speak up to perpetrators. It's saves them the embarrassment of not knowing they are being publicly either or a moron, zealot, or busy-body, and it saves you the arthritis or stomach ulcers later. Speak up then and there and you'll sleep better. But you must not be angry in sinful ways. Thanks for your post.. Don
Mindy:
You have every right to reclaim you and your girls' happiness. You have prayed for it, and the Lord has provided. For some, it is much harder to find that happiness -- maybe they revel in the sadness of loss, maybe they can't rely on faith alone -- but whatever it is, like you say, you can't be responsible for "fixing" their hearts.
You and the girls have been through one of the hardest things in life, and I think you've handled it beautifully, as a mother and a wife. You are very strong, and your daughters are very lucky to have you.
I think about your family often. Keep strong in your faith; it will get you through all things. <3
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