October 3 would have been Marcus' 37th bday. I am sure I would have bought him a cookie cake, we would have had dinner, we would have signed a card...but a gift, probably not...if Marcus wanted something, he bought it...he didn't give anyone a chance to wait for an occasion to get it for him :) I miss that man more than words can ever describe. I miss his smell, his hugs, his kiss, his open mind about everything! I miss our talks, about life, family, faith, the way we would raise our girls, what awaited us after we left this earth...he was so very wise and I learned so very much from him. I miss him. period. and I always will. The hole in my heart is so large...and although it hurts and I miss him so, Love continues. My love for him, my love for our girls...and new love. My love for Joe, the twins, the new family that has embraced us...it is so overwhelming sometimes. I am attaching some pictures that Joe took for me October 3-starting a new tradition for our family. We went to the cemetery to let balloons go to Marcus like we do every special occasion...and this time, Joe, Price and Reece came too. They are our family now and it is important that they share our special times...my heart just swells thinking about how much love we have all around us. I am so thankful to God for every ounce of it...how could you look at our situation and NOT believe in God? I don't know!!
So back to my talks with Marcus...we discussed family alot. Family was very important to us. When I was younger, before my PawPaw Bud passed away, every sunday after church, we would meet at his house for "Sunday Dinner". Now thinking about it, I guess it was really "Sunday Lunch" but we called it "Dinner" :) Anyways, some of my best childhood memories were from those sundays. Any family that was free would come. If you had friends in town, they were always welcome. There were no strangers to my PawPaw. Marcus' PawPaw Dies was the same way! If you came to the home of Thomas Dewey Dies and he cooked, you better get ready to eat!! Marcus told me he missed those days his family would gather to eat then play volleyball, softball, football-basically whatever sport could accommodate everyone :) He wanted to start those afternoon gatherings again once we built our house in Silsbee. We just didn't know who all would actually make the drive ;) Since his bday last week, I can't shake this feeling inside...my aching heart...for the family I once had...don't get me wrong..I am BLESSED and so THANKFUL for the family I have now, but I miss Marcus, PawPaw Dies, PawPaw Bud..all those loved ones that have left us here on earth...I miss just hanging out on the front porch in the swing on 58th street, I miss sitting on the bench in the driveway on Cedar street....oh what I wouldn't give for one more day to go back and soak it all up...one more day....so I have decided to try and make new memories for my children..all four of them...memories they can keep in their hearts forever like Marcus and I have/had. Here is my announcement!! I haven't worked out all the logistics...BUT, stay tuned because within the next few weeks I will host my first SUNDAY DINNER/LUNCH ;) Anyone that wants to come by our home after church to eat, visit, play some soccer, volleyball or whatever sport we can figure out...PLEASE COME!! I will provide main course and a few sides and if you want to bring something you are welcome to. If you just wanna come grub, then come on! I plan on making sure there is enough food for ANYONE that wants to come. If you want to request something to be served, shoot me an email and if I don't know how to make it, I will google it and figure it out!!! Family is so very important to me and I want to keep you all close...
Once again, as always, I want to thank everyone that prays for us, calls to check on us, loves us....if it weren't for all of you, we would be lost....thank you, from the bottom of my heart <3
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I'm just now seeing this...I'm a poor blog reader these days. So when you feedin' us?? Love yall!
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